None of the Above

"The truth is, I don't know what to do." Generally, this is not the phrase you want to hear from someone who has dedicated his entire adult life to helping kids with medical conditions similar to the one your own child has. These, however, were the first words out of Dr. Digoy's mouth when he came to talk to us after he finished looking at Ben on Thursday.

Originally, the doctor thought that Ben's airway was being blocked further down past the vocal cords, but he was able to see things more clearly now that Ben has healed. Both vocal cords are there, but he found that the excess tissue that was enveloping one of the cords has deformed the cord and pushed it out of its usual position, which is why Ben's airway is still blocked. Dr. Digoy said that he had never seen such extensive tissue growth in any of his trach patients (I believe some sort of prize is in order).

After he explained all of this, he said that we have three main options:

1) Use a laser to cut out the deformed vocal cord and the tissue surrounding it so that Ben's airway is clear and the trach can be removed sooner. Ben should still be able to talk with only one cord, but his voice would always sound raspy. Removing the cord could make it more difficult to swallow since the vocal cords are involved in preventing food and liquid from going down into the airway.

2) Leave the excess tissue and the cord alone, and instead widen Ben's airway by adding some cartilage from Ben's rib to the ring of cartilage around the voice box. This would allow Ben to breathe better and preserve his non-functioning vocal cord, but it would not solve the problem of getting the excess tissue out, which could lead to problems later on. This option could also make it more difficult for Ben to swallow since his airway is basically being propped open.

3) Wait for a year and see how Ben develops. This prevents us from making anything worse than it is already, but one of the things Dr. Digoy told us the first time we met with him is that he likes to move aggressively whenever possible to get trachs out since the mortality rate is higher for kids with trachs.

With options like that, you can see why he said he didn't know what to do. He said he'd like us to think on this and pray about it for the next week or two before we talk with him again and make a decision on which way to go. Obviously, I'd prefer for him to take another look down there in a few weeks and see that everything has been healed completely, but barring that miracle, we really have no idea what is best. Hopefully, God will somehow make that clear very soon.

On a little less serious note, today Ben has finally ended his 14 month long protest against bipedalism. I'm guessing the straw that broke the camel's back was watching Olivia toddling around at her first birthday party this past week. It's just too dangerous to allow a girl who can already beat you up to have a mobility advantage on top of that.

Here's a quick video of Ben's first walking adventure. The production quality is even lower than my already low standards so you may want to watch with a barf bag close by if you've eaten recently and are prone to motion sickness. Enjoy.